This was the question most asked at church today…or rather, “I bet your ready to get her out of there, etc.”

Yeah, I guess I am really uncomfortable and it would be nice to meet her. But, this time I don’t have that sense of urgency yet. By now, with all the others I’m sitting on the edge of my seat with everything ready and waiting…bags packed and everything.

For some reason, this time is different. I guess watching a friend suffer through a miscarriage and other friends have babies go on to heaven…this past year has made me grow up a lot in my patience with my babies.

I can say that right now, I truly am uncomfortable and not sleeping and it’s hard to walk (I mean waddle). That’s all true. But this time, this pregnancy, I just have a strong desire to just wait until God is ready for her to be born. I’m taking each day as much in stride as possible (even if it means dissolving in tears when Mark calls or collapsing in bed when he comes home).

So, am I ready? I guess so…if she is! But I still haven’t got my bags packed.

I went for a check up today. I’m 36 1/2 weeks. I have a friend, who is using Dr. J as well and she is due just a couple weeks after me. Our plan is to be induced on the same day, after my due date. She’s having a girl as well.

However, Josiah, for those that don’t remember, was 9 lbs 6 oz. And I expressed a strong desire to try to avoid delivering a baby bigger than that. Dr. J agreed and so, I go back a week from Monday for an ultrasound to see about how big she is and if I’m progressing and such. Then we’ll decide from there.

I have a real strong desire to go into labor on my own, but am trusting God and praying for wisdom as we get closer to having her. And yes, for those that are wondering, as long as everything looks good, I will not have an epidural again. Cheaper, quickest recovery, and overall just easier…

Oh, and she’s head down, which has been a concern of mine for a few weeks since I keep feeling her rear/back poke me…but Dr. J showed me how to make sure she’s head down.

I’ll work on a post in the next few weeks to update everyone on our adoption. It’s hard for me right now to split my brain between the birth and adoption, but I’m working on it.